58 years + 1 day

ok, so....58th was the first anniversary of my birth that i regretted that i was not older, not younger....at 62 I could conceivably retire...at 63 i would retire with 15 years of service and would have covered the youngest child on my family insurance policy til she was 26. nothing happens at 58...nothing hopeful, at least....five more years seems like a really, really long time to get up five days a week to get to work, and five years to keep my place of work viable on my watch....in wretched financial conditions...heavy sigh....