teary-eyed....

ok, so.....i spent an emotional day planning for, and then meeting with folks i am required to meet with in this interim world i now inhabit.....and much as i believe i handled it all well....there still looms the possibility that someone else will be hired to do this job......and as i pushed my cart morosely through the kroger..... i was abruptly brought back to the real world by a woman who blurted.....i know you don't recognize me ...i have lost 50 pounds since i came to see you.....my blood sugars are almost normal.....i made sure the doctor knew who had helped me do this...... gentle readers.....i nearly burst into tears.....mostly because i cannot seem to help myself lose half that amount of weight.....but also because i needed this little interjection of good tidings........to soften whatever bad vibes come from my board members who have strung me along for nearly 4 months with no hope of a future......i did buy a lottery ticket....at the kroger...just in case the lord has other plans for me......