regrets.....

ok, so as i strolled my garden after work.....waiting for the dryer to finish my packable clothing list.....and i regret that i did not make time to do more in my beds before my trip........there are the lewis and clark double daisies that i need to thin out and move to the other side of the trellis for symmetry......and roses from below the deck (shailors pink provence....) that i want to move......and i did mean to raise up the back side of the pond that that i will hold more...but these things must wait til i get back........lots in bloom, mostly wildflowers......toad trillium, wild phlox, moneyplant (lunaria), wood hyacinth, dutchman breeches, lady mantle, shooting star, and some sort of white wood violet (not dogtooth violet....)many of these have been moved from our wood lot into my beds so that i can appreciate them closer to my path......curiously, there is a lovely red tulip blooming out on a rock ledge......maybe one planted by my only homegrown gardener?.......if so please tell me, lest i start to think i planted it myself and simply forgot......there is a nytimes piece today about an alzheimer support group that focused on a 55 year old woman who has early alzheimers......these are not stories i want to hear or read about.....losing my memory is my biggest fear.......would rather go out in a blaze of glory, confident that i had lived a decent little life, than to slowly lose my mind and memory.......