all afoul......

ok, so....i woke up this morning with my sinuses clogged, by jaw in pain, and my gums swollen......clearly i clenched what is left of my teeth during my time asleep......and must continue on as is for nearly 48 hours til the dental appointment......this focus on my health has become annoying at best......distracting at worst.......because i seem to be unable able to concentrate on anything but my head......even as i lay in the bed listening to a piece about alice seibold on the bbc, i had difficulty getting beyond my personal discomfort.....beyond the possibility that pain and aches are the new reality......seibold's new book is about pain and aches and growing older and more feeble/fragile, at some level.....and at some level it was hard to listen to the gist of her newest book's plot.....i don't want to read about stark reality at this point....i want to lose myself in the fantasy of the prose....or at least immerse myself in a story where nobody feels mean and old.....