firm and floppy......

ok, so......i ended up driving to lexington to see brokeback mountain by myself.....one friend was sick and the other couldn't go to the early show that i had to see if i wanted to get back in time for my own birthday supper.....and it worked out well...given that i intended to shop for pillows.....pillow shopping is personal and not intended for public view........especially after such a tragic film......linens and things in hamburg had an entire section dedicated to all things head-support.....feathers, poly, gel-cores, and all manner of fillings........i did find a pillow that came in a box that promises to remember my head.....i was mostly attracted by the weight and firmness.....so similar to my current heavy bottom feather pillow......and then there is the faux feather floppy pillow touted as the perfect thing for stomach sleepers.....it is truly loose and pliant........pricey but perfect........my trip home was made extra mournful by the simulcast of the met opera's performance of samson and delilah.....so very sad to listen to despite my lack of french skills.......and so my guests are leaving (andrew, michelle, grandma).....and i am emotionally spent...with being old, with having to break in new bedding, with the depressing film......with lex traffic......the good news.....my gift entails a trip to nyc to see museums during my middle child's spring break.....all i have to do is to pin down dates/times.......i always function better with a trip to look forward to....