mean mamma

ok, so...i spent most of this day with my own mm....and i came away vexed with both guilt and despair.......isn't that the universal union of mothers goal?.....to make us daughters feel at once the lack of appreciation for all these women had done for us.....but also the difference between our achievements and their expectations.......?......at lunch...at red lobster...the only acceptable lunch destination.....i mentioned my offer to teach personal health and wellness to eku students at the danville campus......and she abruptly changed the subject to my brother's business trip to california........fear not....i feel no rivalry between me and and my sibling.......but i do so deeply miss my father at times like these....who believed in me so faithfully...who always took the time to ask me what i was up to ........inquiring minds want to know.......and it is times like these when i worry that i have failed my children as a parent........that i have made it all about me rather than all about them.........and that would have been terribly mean of me............