superstitions.......

ok, so i am having a bout of superstition........let me fill int he details for you all, gentle readers......and you be the judge...am i overreacting or adequately concerned.......?.......remember, if you will......that i have been obsessed of late with memory books.......i put together memory books for my middle child's closer friends as graduation tributes.....and another for my spouse when he turned 50......and today i finished the book for my new graduate......still in the graduation weekend....so i do not consider it late by any definition....and while all of the materials/photos/gluesticks/borrowed holepunch and paper trimmer were all out and available...i went ahead and put together a 21st birthday tribute for my eldest....2 weeks early....at supper my youngest pitched a minor fit...claiming that i have put together such collections of photos and memories for EVERYBODY EXCEPT HER.....and that she will never get one done especially for her because by the time she is graduated I WILL BE DEAD........gentle readers......i suspect that she threw in this last sentiment in just for effect.....but it has really freaked me out......what if she is right.....what if my days are numbered.......maybe i should stay up all night and make her a partial volume I just to be on the safe side........i did take the time to sift through photographs anticipating several upcoming events worthy of such tributes....the 21st birthday of the eldest child of our closest friends...their 25th wedding anniversary......our 25th....you get the idea.....and i have started a small pile of pictures....secured by a rubberband...of our youngest.......maybe not the cream of the crop in terms of photos...but they were in amongst all of the other un-albumed photos.......so....just how supersitious am i?......will i defy all logic and do nothing until she hits a milestone....like sweet 16......or graduation.....or should i panic and do one now just to be on the safe side.......i happened to talk to my youngest sisterinlaw today.......she called mostly to confirm that we will all stay with her when we travel to cincinnatti in june for yet another wedding the same weekend as brass band festival in danville.....another year that we will miss all the festivities in our own neck-of-the-woods......but i digress.......we got to talking about those in the family currently treated for cancers of one sort or another......and we got onto the subject of risk assessment/diagnostic testing for clinical markers.....and my sister-in-law tried to explain to me why, with so many siblings who have had cancer(s) she has not and may never have....this test done to ascertain her risk of breast cancer.......she seemed to be saying to me that she does all that she can do to lower her risk, and if she ends up with cancer there is little she can do.....it will just be god's will.......gentle readers.....this is a place that i will not go with family members not related by blood.....maybe with my own blood kin.....but not with anybody elses........we changed the subject to other matters soon after....but the discussion is still with me.....the notion of god's will.....nothing to be done......she was calling me from a lawn chair....at the big outdoor wave/play pool complex in eastern cincinnati, where she was watching her 4 1/2 year-old son romp in the water........ hard to imagine myself blythely giving into to god's will with a child not yet in kindergarten.......but then i have never had to make the decisions regarding potential risk that my inlaws have had to do.....no...i just scurry about doing all i can do before i sink into dementia.........i almost forgot about that reality.......should i stap up all night doing a little book of memories for cayle in case the forgetfullness becomes acute overnight........or can i safely wait a week or two.....or a month or two........or put it off completely till i really start to sense that i am slipping.........regardless......i can assure you that i will blog until i can no longer remember my password........and should i go a week or so without blogging....please check the obits at the danville advocate messenger......because i probably WILL be dead if that happens........