dolphins make me cry......

ok, so just when i thought it was safe to turn back to the npr coverage of the gulf war, ur i mean the gulf disaster........i heard a piece on the dolphins from the oceanarium in gulfport......a facility washed away.......but all of these days aftereards....the 8 dolphins came back.......altogether....like a family.....having lost weight from their lack of realworldhuntingskills.......but alive and well......absolutely amazing.....like they followed some internal guidance system that led them back to a specific longitude/lattitude.......the oceanarium folks are feeding them now 6 times a day......and hope to capture/transport them to the same holding facility as yet unnamed.....because they have been together through so much already it would be mean to split them up.....and so i just wept through this piece as a drove to the crosscountry meet at the park...the boyle invitational......and i know full well that i am crying for more than just these dolphins but for the tragedy as a whole........kind of like having post-traumatic stress syndrome without having anything tragic happen to me personally.....3 louisville women were arrested today and charged woth impersonating displaced people from the gulf.......how dispicable to pretend that you are in need when you are not......or at least...not as in need as you pretend to be.....depression is such a slippery slope......i am determined to not allow this event, so far away to trigger such a response.........as if my body is a vessel in search of a syndrome........but as i feel somehwat adrift in my emptying nest.......i have got to find things to busy myself........i could dig up the french tapes......and practice in hopes a trip will present itself........there was a time when i would have said that i found change invigorating......but as i get older.......i hate the word older, by the way......i handle change poorly.........and like the dolphins....i instinctively come right back to where i am supposed to be, even though there are no chains..............