catching up on housekeeping....

ok, so i have done more housework in the past 48 hours than i usually do in a week...or two.....and it wasn't even in my own home......i took advantage of my mother's trip to cleveland to get her caught up....on laundry, dishes, vacumning.....and sorting through the reams of junkmail she gets......every cause and organization except maybe the nigerian spammers have her name on their solicitation roles......and then there is the recycling......oy!.......once the cans and bottles and boxes and empty pill bottles are out of the way...what a difference....we took the time to organize her videos and cd's.......and root out all but the most recent catalogs........it all adds up.....it all makes me fearful......that she has such little interest in picking up after herself....is it alzheimer's...or depression.....or adult adhd....can pills help someone to deal with clutter...how will i know for certain that she can no longer live alone........i must admit that some of the mayhem is charitable...she makes receiving blankets and hats for newborns who have nothing to wear home from the hospital, and cloth covers for catheter bags for the v.a.......and she makes bandages for haiti...though i content that even the haitians would rather have whole cloth remnants than strips rolled up and fastened........when my eldest left for his own place yesterday he asked what my current worry was.....'i know you always have something you are worrying about, mom...what is it this time?.....'i had no pat answer at the time, but i do now.....i worry that my mom is already incapable of living well alone, and that i am in denial of this reality......maybe when my brother comes home for christmas he can look at the situation with fresh eyes.......and so it is 3:45 on the sunday afternoon of a 4 day weekend....and i am going upstairs to read...not my bookclub books, nope.....i have picked up hp book 5 order of the phoenix...to remind myself just what happened after goblet of fire ended......and i find it just as compelling a read this time around as it was the first time i read it......one could call it escapist reading........