10 years

ok, so.....i am almost embarrassed to admit that 10 years after the death of diana, i am still saddened...and after a year since the crash and burn of c-air flight 5191 i wish we could just move on....and this from someone who actually knew someone on the plane.....so why do i secretly mourn a woman i never met?......why do i worry that her children make their way in the world without her steadying hand?.....and how is it that i didn't even send a card to a widow that i know well enough to speak to on the street?......if i knew i'd surely record my response....but i have no idea why....none at all.....