raison d'etre.....

ok, so.....i have a quest......a quest that every mother dreams of......a particular yet obscure wish that her child desires.....mm's everywhere lay in wait for their children to disclose this dream wish.....in my case...the dream is grey and cotton......and though not directly identified as a dream wish......i have taken it on as such because.......it seems to be all i can do at this point to affect the happiness of one out of three children......so we are only talking 33% chance of fulfillment....likely less...because our children rarely tell us directly and with any immediacy that our actions were appreciated...there is little i can do to make my 14 year old happy ...save buy her a horse......and the eldest is happy as a clam........for the record...i stopped at both the stanford and danville goodwills...with no luck....tomorrow i will try at least 3 lex goodwills......