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ok, so...i am in countdown mode....in the final hours before i go back to work...in a wheelchair and/or crutches....after a 5-week confinement at home......i am still working out strategy: backpack rather than purse or tote, clothing that requires no ironing, lunch today that should afford leftovers for my lunch tomorrow...i have run through the audio book downloads on this pc so i am listening to playlists i do not recall making....the current is called kathy's misc indie rock and includes sufjan stevens, animal collective, ben kamen, the chapin sisters, neko case and death cab for cutie....i am down to the boxes of photos having finished up the last album yesterday. I have actually sorted out scannable selections from the first box and the pile is relatively small when separated from random or repetitive scenery...or animals for that matter...there is a series i vaguely recall...taken by our third child when learning to use a camera....of our neighbor's dog on our deck...over and over and over....i have saved them for her rather than putting them back in the box.....i must note for posterity-sake that on a normal sunday i would be getting ready for sunday school.....but on this sixth sunday of my recovery....i am not attempting church.....i have lunch in the oven and coffee at the elbow and i am working through a stack that i pulled from albums years ago for potential inclusion in a celebratory scrapbook...18th birthday? graduation from HS...or college? no clue......i am pleased to see some of these photos as i was surprised to find the empty spaces in the albums where they would have fit sequentually....i am considering the day spent in my pajamas but we will be five for lunch and i would have to admit to being depressed when the rest of my family shows up.....depressed may not be the correct diagnosis....neither is comfortably numb.....i am not the least bit comfortable...but i digress from this my 5941th blog post.....i could download the adele album lost in the wreck because my spouse could not get it out of the cd player....the other five slots contained burned cd's but the sixth was an original adele...and it was his not mine.....i had given it to him for christmas as part of a cd/dvd concert in royal albert hall set.....alas...it is gone and i need to replace it in time to listen to it in the car i do not yet own....i will be driven to and from work for the short-term but eventually i will need a car to replace the paid-for honda accord...i am still fuming about the loss of that car...it was in great shape for its age and i have enjoyed the lack of car payment for quite some time....i resent the loss of this car almost as much as i resent the loss of these past five weeks from my active existence....while i have made the most of these weeks i cannot replace the things that i have lost in my garden because i was not able to water twice a day during the extreme heat in july......five mature boxwoods moved to make way for the greenhouse went from iffy to completely dead followed by numerous perennials in the bed visble from the guest room....and then there is the vegetable garden...i can see the shriveled tomato plants that succumbed....and the cumcumber and squash plants that survive only to have their fruits grow bitter/mealy and unpicked....no clue if anything lives on in my greenhouse as it is not visible from a wheelchair-accessable vantage point....no clue if i have seeds to plant for the fall....my mind is so very cloudy on so many planes....i cannot recall the clothes hanging in a closet i have not seen in five going on six weeks....nor whether i have boxed thank you notes on my desk upstairs....heavy sigh.....my follow-up x-ray is scheduled for wednesday...at which point i may be given the green light to put weight on my ankle and begin to learn to walk again.....and learn to drive again....and move on from this unfortanate interlude....