pain.....

ok, so........i missed my children tearfully this day.......why today more than any other.....?......no sweet babies came my way to remind me of how my boys used to be........no trigger scents aroused an organic remembrance........but this day i sent them both mushymamma emails....for the eldest it was simply thoughts of how proud i am of his accomplishments....and for the middle...well.......i chanced to walk about my garden before work....and my garden always evokes tender images of a child who cared so deeply about positioning, bloom cycle, sunversusshade........i think of him with every plant that blooms......the evolution from meanmamma to mushymamma will be.......painful for all involved.......