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ok, so i just finished rereading a book about the author's walk along the pilgrim route to santiago de compostella....in northern spain......2 years ago when i was traveling in the snow storm from bilbao to madrid we saw a pilgrim from the car.....and we were quite excited...because he was a real pilgrim....with a shell, and a floppy hat.......one day i would like to do this walk...from arles, or le puy...or vezelay......certainly not from paris on the rue st jacque because that is a long way indeed........but to make a real pilgrimage...surely that is a major life event.......to catholics......of which i am not and will never be.....in fact...i must confess to cynicism........sunday in church.......which i came every close to blowing off......was, in fact,........gideon sunday.....and half the congregation had already blown it off........i have heard the gideon spiel many times......the same way each and every time.....it would seem.......and i allowed myself to snicker with my middle child, during the message.....about the banality of it all.......i will admit, gentle readers, that i am loathe to proselytize......i believe religion to be personal, and not something to crow about to all/any who will listen.........so why would i want to walk the entire northern route from the french border to the ocean.....because it is there?.........the only interesting thing i found in the book club book about john adams........was the fact that he once landed near santiago and traveled to paris along the northern route.....he even wrote to his wife from bilbao.........which is not quite on the pilgrimage......but i have been to bilbao and to no other place on the pilgrimage....so i was interested to read this.......back to the catholic part....sunday, we sang a call to worship that sounded so catholic....i was thinking it, but my spouse actually leaned over and whispered...this sounds so catholic.....and i started snickering.......i feel guilty, snickering at church, but then i am so cynical......i would not be surprised that when one looks up cyncial in the dictionary......there would be a link to mm..........ah well........one day i will snicker the entire walk to santiago..........