Friday, August 27, 2004

coping with withdrawal..........

ok, so i no longer have access to fully stocked refrigerators for 10-15 hour stretches at a time...........and this loss becomes problematic for me at curious times during the day...........to the point of distraction.....i realize about 9:30 am that my breakfast is comepletely gone, and that i must eat very soon or i will just.............well, i won't die, but the angst that hunger creates gets in the way of all reasonable thought processes........i go ahead and eat one of my pieces of fruit from home........and by 10:30 am........i am hungry again............this morning i became so single-minded on food that i ate part of the tabouli salad i brought from home.....................and was able to make it til noon without a minor breakdown.......................so what is the deal?................partly......it is bacon withdrawal............i used to have a blt for breakfast, once i got to work............and that lasted until i started tasting pots for seasoning................well, you all know why i have gained about 3-4 pounds per year since buying the restaurant..............and now i have pulled the rug out from under my manic eating habits.............and it is not pretty.....going from no-holds-barred highfat to lowfat is quite a transition.................pray for me..................lest i turn to shoe leather in desparation...............

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