a serious book to read......

ok, so i found a book to read at the library yesterday......incidents in the rue langier.....by anita brookner......i have purchased another book by the same author...twice......hotel du lac.....which won the booker prize.......anyway.....the first part is about how the narrator finally gets around to reading her mother's diary....and how it sheds light on the woman who said so little during her life........curious.......as i have read through recently letters that both grandmothers wrote to me when i was in college......they say little about the women they were........my grandmother crown never learned to drive....yet voted democrat despite the republicans who drove her to the polls.......i have her oak buffet......and if need be...i could probably make homemade noodles on my counter using the method i absorbed from watching her years ago.............i have yet to figure out how she made her orange juice cookies........anyway...i clearly remember her berating my father......in the year my mother'went back to work' for not doing more to get supper on the table.......she said...'herb.....if you get home first you COULD put on the potatoes....'.......and i can say honestly that i never really knew her.........and then there was my grandmother clara adele stephan broughton....quite the spoiled child....being the youngest...and 20 years younger than her oldest sibling.........i could say that i learned the art of drama from her......she could really put on a show if she desired.........but i digress .......my memories of my grandmothers are just that.... memories....nothing concrete in print...nothing definitive.......yet i have left a body of work in my blog. 1450 blogs.......that really does not contain my most personal thoughts...because i am not likely to disclose my most personal thoughts in a public venue........so my children will have to discern my most private thoughts by reading between my lines..........ah well.....1450 blogs...and still no honesty..........can they say that they knew me well?..........