anne lamott

ok, so i have been reading a book of essays written by a radical menopausal progressive christian feminist......the book is called plan b:further thoughts on faith.......let me...let you....read the 1st paragragh......on my 49th brithday, i decided that all life was hopeless, and i would eat myself to death. these are desert days. better to go out by our own hands than to endure slow death by scolding at the hands of the bush adminstration....however, after a second cup of coffee i realized that i couldn't kill myself that morning, not because it was my birthday, but because i'd promised to get arrested the next day. i had been arrested three weeks earlier with an ecumenical bunch of religious peaceniks, people who still believe in dr, king, and ghandi...also, my back was out.....i didn't want to die in crone mode...plus, there was no food in the house...so i took a long, hot shower instead.....and began another day of being gloated to death......ms lamott, i determined.....was known to me long ago through the web site called mothers who think.....which morphed into......salon.com.......to say she is christian is too limiting.....i see her as a nice blend of the entire middle eastern gene pool that goes back through abraham......with a bit of zen thrown in for good measure.......the piece she wrote about the death of her dog sadie had me sobbing in the bathtub.......to the point that i had to get up and find a towel to wipe my face so that i could finish the story...let along complete the bath.........and her take on menopause......well.......i can understand completly the bit about crone mode..........amazing how the men in my life still choose to live here.........reading her thoughts makes me feel so gullty that i didn't drive on down to crawford, texas in hopes of getting arrested for a good cause.........i believe that that is my calling, by the way......to feel so passionately about a cause that i would risk my permanent record.......currently clouded by that pesky dog-at-large business.......somebody has to step forward......and someday it will be me.......i am just not certain about which day will be my day.........one of these days.....