Friday, December 01, 2006

out of body.....

ok, so i got my hair cut over lunch today.....and the bulk of it is in a ziplock in my purse, awaiting tranport to the locks-of-love folks.....and the stylist did the best she could with what was left..the experience in the random salon i chose was surreal...the radio blared the mercer consolidated titans state final game live from papa john's stadium in louisville....the crowd could taste their first state win.....the salon had been empty because anybody who could make the trip to louisville to see the game had done so...in a convoy behind the team and student buses....cheers for the home team while i sat alone trying to keep my reserve as i completed a year-long endeavor....growing hair for charity is not much of a spectator sport......but i digress from my haircut.....which is quite short as to resemble my aunt virginia....and so far nobody who has seen this version of the mm has said more than...'you got your hair cut'......my own spouse never went so far as to say something vaguely supportive like....and it looks great.....ah well.....it will grow out and i will be able to look in mirrors again......the experience was curiously emotional....as the stylist asked if i had gone through the process for a reason, or had i grown out my hair over the past year on a whim.....and i got teary over her question, and could barely explain that it was in memory of friends/kin who died in the past year of cancer....it was at that point that i recalled missing my daily alotment of estrogen......some things are better explained pharmaceutically.....the hair is gone, i look like someone else, and i will deal with it until i become myself again.........

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