ok, so......i have not had the urge to blog for days......but when i came home from my class this evening the aroma of the grape hyacinth was so heady due to today's rain and humidity as to be intoxicating........i made my rounds to look for signs that plants on my worry list are budding....and was moved to rush back in the house to try out the new camera.....keep in mind that this picture was taken at nearly 8:00 pm.....such sites are comforting to me, especially after the doings of this week, and particularly after the freshair interview from my drivetime home......terry gross interviewed somebody who believes completely in science rather than religion, and who started out his interview with this sentiment.....'the world does not owe us meaning...'that there is no meaning intrinsically and any meaning we assign was just that...assigned....and he went on to say that the notion that there is beauty has to do with darwinism not with a godly hand at design.......yes, i can see his point....but i have a hard time believing that there is no meaning whatsoever in the beauty that is spring bloom.....i am trying my best to focus on this blog, rather than on my child's weekly conversation with her birth mother.....the topic is likely to be the application for a pseudo-beauty pageant....think littlemisssunshine at its bluegrass worst......and i got the distinct impression that though she scoffed at the entire affair, she considered my lack of support in her participation as mutinous......for the record, i abhor such events...the sexing-up of young impressionable girls to believe that the barbie look is desirable......i will admit that this blog from start to finish is pure procrastination.....i have not packed the first thing....i have a list but nothing on that list has broken the plane of the suitcase.....curious.....in years past i'd have filled the baggage weeks ahead....and kept it like a shrine to the travel-god until just before departure.....but then i have never traveled before on a day when i felt like i'd rather be at a wake......i hope that spring has erupted in the bright renewable colors of hope just in time for this visit....this visit especially.....