sleep.......

ok, so i am back to not sleeping, after a short stretch of restful nights......last night it was the waiting up for the child not yet home.......a restlessness based on basic anxiety rather than any belief that he could be getting himself into trouble somehow........the summer before college is a transitionary period for all involved........the knowledge that when he is in college i will not know when he comes or goes is in my brain......but i cannot seem to get by the present state of wondering where could my baby boy be at this hour......and to imagine that he has driven his car into a ditch and been knocked unconscious.....and nobody will go out hunting for him save his mamma.......i am not saying that i have actually thought these thoughts.....they sound mighty crazy this morning............but sleep-deprived menopausal women rarely make any sense......now do they?.........