wimbledom sw19

ok, so i watch as much match play as i can during the fortnight.......and the tradition goes back many years...beyond my miscarriage/tubal pregnancy surgery what.......16-17 years ago......the last year that chrissie every played.....i remember coming out of anethesia...to chrissie bowing to the royal box......after losing to martina........gosh.....so many years ago.....and so many moments where i have wondered what things would have been like if i had carried to term......and not adopted........such a thing to put out of one's mind.......how things could have been......life is a series of events that shouldn't have been.....yet have been......and when i wake up and night and obsess......well.......it is with the full knowledge that i haven't turned back the hands of time/fate...............and the way things are is the ways things are meant to be............like it or not..................