it is the little things that make a big difference.....

ok,so today i found something that i had been looking for...searching for....obsessing over.......a thing that i had replaced......inadequately...but replaced......it is a cookie cutter....stainless steel...not quite 2 inches long and 1 inch wide.....a scalloped half-moon..perfect for these little lime shortbread cookies that i haven't made since i lost the cookie cutter...it had sentimental value...because i bought it years ago at dehillerin....near les halles..the ultimate kitchen supply store.....i was there in january...and tried to find the exact cutter......the clerk denied having any knowledge that they had ever sold such a cutter, despite my lovely drawing...they did sell to me an oval cutter, without scallops...that is lovely but just not the same as the one i lost.........well....today i found it, at the restaurant...in an unlikely place......had it been a likely place i would have found it years ago.........and i was elated......gentle readers.......joy is an emotion that seems harder and harder to come by as i get older.......today i am convinced that i felt genuine joy......i have been trying to take home, box by box, things that i had brought from home when we opened the restaurant....aside from things i know to have been broken.....i have located just about everything...except that blessed cookie cutter.......it must be a sign from God that it is time to leave......it is sad, of course....like getting a divorce......maybe worse.....because it is like living in the same house when your spouse takes a new wife....and you are both kind of there together but nothing is official, legal, or severed.........but, hey.....i got the cookie cutter...and that is really all that matters..........